Filipina. Bicolana. Atenean.
Singer. A-Fash Founder.
She has a main personal style blog at www.spotlightonjamie.com
where she properly documents her OOTDs and adventures. This Tumblr blog, where she started four years ago, serves as her personal blog. This is where she dumps her thoughts, life photos and updates in her life under the spotlight.
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(No, this post is not a hate post for Korean Pop.)
Kpop is the name of our family dog. We named him Kpop, because of the spot in his eye that looks like eyeliner that is just so Kpop! Such a cutiepatootie, right? *u*
I actually don’t know much about dogs. I’m not really a pet lover since I am allergic to hairy animals and I have asthma, and my mom kinda dislikes animals in our house too. The only pet that I had when I was a kid were fishes (like lots of different kinds of it because our family business involves a lot of sea animals), and I think that doesn’t really count as pets huh. But I’ve always wanted to have a dog. So my mom got me one after convincing her for months. And my dad’s with me on this! (yea~)
I was so happy when we had Kpop because he was like really sweet and likes to cuddle all the time. I also talk to him sometimes, and that made me happy because I had someone to talk to instead of myself. /loner
But he just died yesterday. We didn’t know what happened. He just started not to eat for 4 days, puke and poop blood. And my parents are out of town so I really didn’t know what to do with him. The day he died, I saw a big butterfly near the place where he died. Is that even possible for dogs? To visit their love ones through butterflies? Err, I admit it, I kinda cried when that happened.. T.T
So yeah, I think I’ll not be having pets again anytime soon, or I think like ever again. I’m bad at this, and I don’t think I can let them die on my watch again. That’s just heartbreaking.
Err~ this post.. Oh, just some random dramas..
I’ve been back-reading my blog, and I just can’t help but to smile to my old self. A lot had really changed. My hair, looks, style, writing.. I used to write everything about my life before.
This blog really help me through with my everyday life back then, because I don’t have much friends. Well, I have a lot of friends but I don’t have much of those who are willing to listen to my silly and melodramatic stories. I almost forgot how much I love my Tumblr blog. I had also almost abandoned this. I transferred to Blogspot for a more professional-ish or proper-ish fashion blogging.
And I don’t know, something had happened to me, I guess. These changes. Growing older. Bigger world. Future. I don’t know how to explain it, maybe I don’t know what it is too. Err anywayyy, maybe I just miss personal blogging. Talking about random things about my day, and not caring to what everyone would say.
I kinda lost myself, I think.. I don’t know what I want anymore. (so melodramatic, aren’t I?) :|
So yeah, what I’m saying is.. I think doing what I love doing before may help me to know what I want now, like what I have been before, I was very optimistic about things and somewhat sure that my future would be nice for me. So yes, I’ll be back in this blog with more personal blogging! And also, I think this blog will involve more photography now. Photography and I just got back together. :)
*sigh* Blogging is really fun and therapeutic. This blog post just made me feel better. :’)
Random photo of the day. Heee *u*
Midterms exam this week! Wish me luck, guys! ;) Anyhoo, I just gained my 1,000th follower last night! Thank you itskittychelle for being my 1,000th follower! And to all of my followers! Jamie ♥ all of you! Hihi. :”> Another giveaway soon to thank all of you! :*
Err.. Sorry for the lame slash irrelevant photo. I just want to update my blog. :p
So.. I’m so back to school! That means, less time for blogging! I’m aiming for President’s List this sem! /parents’ expectations :< But don’t fret. I’ll try to make an outfit post at least once a week! If you want to have more updates from me, please do follow me on twitter & instagram @jamielouborile! ;)
P.S. Thank you followers! I got so kilig! I get new followers na everyday. /share lang lol *u* I wanna thank you guys! Blog giveaway sooooon!! ;)
And for the nth time.. I feel so uninspired again. I don’t know why I feel so uninspired to do things. I woke up this morning having this sadness and an unknown feeling, that until know, I still haven’t figured out what it is. It’s exactly 8 days before our classes start (yes 8 days!), but still, I haven’t done all the things that I’ve planned before summer. Time flies so fast. I can’t even believe that on July, I’m already turning 19. *sigh* Maybe I just feel that I have wasted a lot of time in my life. But maybe! Just maybe. It’s still not too late do to the things that I love. Inspiration, where art thou? I gotta find you now!!
Hi everyone! :3
Forgive me if I was not able to blog for these past few days! I’ve been really lazy. Mehehe. Spent my days with reading The Notebook, watching HIMYM, and sleeping a lot. Like a lot! Hihi. :>
I was supposed to take photos of my outfit of the day earlier, but ended up getting lazy again because of the heat. Photography and modeling at the same time is really hard you know. =___= So I just ended up taking half body photos of me ‘cause it’s easier that way. Mehehe. *u*
Anyway.. I will blog again as soon as I get to process all my photos for the past days. Peace and love everyone! ❤
Just Home ~
Every afternoon, I always spend time in our garden just to make muni-muni and enjoy the fresh air. My dad and I have this kind of jamming every afternoon where we feed our pet fishes in our pond. Fishes are the only pets I have had ever in my whole life because I am allergic to furry animals. I really missed jamming with my dad since I am always away from home because of studying. Thank God it’s already vacation! I really missed our home especially our garden which is always with flowers because of my mom. The photos above are just a glimpse of our lovely garden. I hope someday I can also blog about this garden as well as our home. If I didn’t get lazy. Hee.. *u*
I still can’t believe that she’s gone now.. She’s so young. She’s just 8! :’(
It was really unexpected. My mom called me earlier around 1PM, she asked first if where I was and if my Lola is around. I said yes and she said I have to go upstairs and lock myself into my room because there’s a bad news that she will be telling. So, I did what she said. Then she goes on with her bad news.. "Anak, pagdasal mo si Chinee. Nawawala daw, inanod sa ilog." She wasn’t really swimming into the river. She’s just in the riverbank, but because it was constantly raining there for days, the soil collapsed and she fell into the river and soon lost in sight..
I was in a total shock. I’ve never experienced a thing like this before. I locked myself into our comfort room and cried. After a few minutes of crying and praying for her safety, I gather myself up and pretended that I didn’t know a thing for my Lola to not suspect anything. My mom said that my Lola need not to know anything, because she will surely be worried.
After an hour, when I was praying again locked in my room, my mom called again.. My mom was crying when she said, "Anak.. Wala na si Chinee.." And for a moment, we just held our phones, not saying a thing, and cried… Wala na.. Wala na siya.. I still can’t believe it. It doesn’t seem real. I wish it wasn’t real..
Her body was found in the bottom of that deep river. Her body was still soft, but no sign of life..
My mom said I should call my aunt (mother of Chinee) for her to talk to my Lola. By that time, only my Lola and I was at home. I was shaking then. Hands cold. Heartbeat so fast. Trying my hardest to not let my tears drop. So I called my aunt with my shaky hands. She answered me with her shaking voice, crying hyterically, using the same line that my mom used, "Wala na si Chinee.." I didn’t reply because I can’t find any words to answer that. Instead, I just reached the phone to my Lola. And I swear! Seeing my Lola cry is the hardest!
For an hour, we just cried and prayed. Hoping for a miracle. Hoping that she will still come back, that God will still bring her back to life. After an hour, we seem tired of crying and just stared at nowhere. Spaced out.
It’s so tragic. I can’t imagine her struggling in the water, aiming for air to breathe, using all her strength to fight death..
It doesn’t seem right. How could this happen to her? She’s so young.. and innocent. Maybe God is just excited to be with her in heaven and make her as His angel..
Chinee, wherever you are now. I hope you’re happy. I will miss you. The Lee family will miss you. You will be forever in our hearts.. May you rest in peace.. †
I’ve only one class during Fridays and Saturdays, so I really got a chill time during Friday afternoons, and Saturday afternoons are my time to travel back to my hometown Daet. ;)
So, I’ve spent my Friday the 13th at SM Naga, as usual with James. Mehe. We ate lunch at McDo and did some window shopping. lol :)) We also went to National Bookstore and spent 3 hours there just reading some magazines and books. We’ve felt such a pasaway there because after 3 hours, we’ve just ended buying 1 ballpen! Hahaha!
See? We just sat on the floor. Hehe. I read some book about fashion and styling. Then I found this Seventeen, Ultimate Guide to Style book.
It’s a little similar to the The Candy Style Guide but only bigger and has more details on it. It also features the girly, edgy, classic, boho, glam and indie styles! ;) It’s a really great book. I really loved it that I’ve scanned all the pages of it! I read all of them for free. Hahaha! :))
And oh, I also finally bought a ruffled socks! Gosh! I’ve been looking for this for like forever! Thanks to Ms. Jenine for telling me where she had bought hers! Heehee. *u* It’s really cheap! Bought this at the Kids section @ only P49.75! Hihi. They don’t have ruffled socks for adults. Luckily, my feet fitted in the last size for the kids! Mehe. I have a small feet yah know. :3
I’m so excited to wear them for a shoot! ;)
I can’t remember when’s the last time I made a plain text blog post about what I feel.. but this feeling is just soooo bothering me right now.
I think I had dreamt of her last night. And when I woke up, hey! it’s Christmas! And I said to myself.. Isn’t Christmas the time to forgive?
It’s been two years or so since that thing happened, and until now, I’m still having issues about forgiving. I really find it hard to forgive her.. because at the first place, I have never heard a single sorry from her. How can I forgive her? No one said sorry about it, and I am not the one who had it all happened. Why would I forgive her? Why would I be the one to say sorry first? But.. Ako lang din naman yung nahihirapan… Every day, when something reminds me of her, it really breaks my heart. Yes, until now…
Why is it so hard to forgive? I really want to forgive her, really! I had thought of this already a long time ago, but still, I can’t do it. Every time I go to the mass or just pray, I always ask for Him to make all this pain and hatred go away. I think it really takes time…
So I pray to you, God, once more.. Please make this hatred in my heart all go away, so that I can be able to forgive.. and feel the true happiness and peace in my heart..
Happy birthday, Jesus!